♥ Eternity

Wednesday, December 23, 2009

it's been almost a month since i last blogged!

haha....

enjoying my hols too much la.... it's so nice spending time with my daughter especially since she's trying to achieve more and more new milestones each day!!!

i've been having sooo much fun... hehe... so, i shall briefly talk about everything that's happened since my last post.....

11 - 13 Dec, my entire family 14 adults and 3 kids went on a road trip to KL to visit our paternal relatives.... had loads of fun, and LOTS of bonding.....it's been so long.....far too overdue... our last one was in 2003 to Genting.... i love visiting my relatives in KL... so much warmth.. maybe it's the absence that strengthens the relationship?? Anyway, our main aim was also for them to meet Baby Faith.... =) we went to pay respects to our grandparents too.........took some photos, which u can check out on Baby Faith's blog....

Faith was an absolute darling on the trip......never once making a fuss for no rhyme or reason nor throwing a tantrum.....we're so speechlessly proud of her.... =)

14 Dec, Darling's younger bro's wedding. It was Faith's first time attending a wedding. =) she even served tea to them.... hehe.... many thanks to Winson for agreeing to help out as their photographer on such short notice.....

15 Dec, had dinner with Sheena, Darling and Baby Faith @ Phin's steakhouse, coz I just felt like steak.. hehe....must say that the food quality has definitely increased... =D

16 Dec, brought my grandparents, mum and Faith out for lunch at Nan Bei.... our fave Chinese restaurant after Sheena brought us there... much cheaper and nicer than Crystal Jade Kitchen.. =)

19 and 20 Dec, did grocery and xmas shopping...... love our xmas pressies this year, coz they are so much more meaningful, for our loved ones... hehe...and they are from Baby Faith... hehe...

21 Dec, went to buy Darling's anniversary present.......you know, it's quite hard to get surprises for each other these days, especially since we spend every waking moment with each other and Faith!!! thank God i have my hols to go gallivanting! hahaha....it's harder for my poor darling though, since other than work, he's never away from us!!!! =p so anyway, i wanted to make a calendar for darling, filled with photos of our little family...but i gathered that he wouldn't display it at work, and it'd end up on our computer table drawing dust...so i gave up on the idea....... ended up settling his material wants instead......after all, if you know my darling well enough, he hates spending money on himself.....i've to coax him a million times before he'll buy it...and he's one of those pple who'll see something they like, yet refuse to buy it....but gain contentment simply by going back to the shop to view it over and over again...this stupid habit of his has caused him to miss out on this lovely pair of berms from Nike that went out of stock!!! SIGH.... since he's been wanting his Liverpool jersey since last season, i decided to buy 2 of the 3 available jerseys for him...as well as a PS3 game... since he won't splurge on himself, i'll splurge for him!!!

hehe....i got a lovely mini whiteboard from him for my TO-Do lists at school!!!! i fell in love with it once i set eyes on it...but... didn't want to buy it...felt it was more a want than a need....so darling bought it for me secretly!!! =D

22 Dec, our 2nd wedding anniversary and Baby Faith's turning 9 months!!! we checked out this great place from http://ieatishootipost.com for great food....and we found this place Yakiniku Daidomon located at United Square..... if you didn't already know, i'm a total beef lover...... and darling and me love our fair share of meats.... haha... so, we decided to go....it costs 45.90++ per pax....but the food was fantastic..... can't wait to go there again....... u must really love your meats to enjoy this place....hehehe... for the pics, you can check them out here...

23 Dec, since today is the official anniversary of the date we got together... (7 years and counting!), we decided to give ourselves a little treat and go watch Avatar together....

i totally LOVE LOVE LOVE the movie man...... the visual effects are stunning...so much so that i wanna visit Pandora myself! and the storyline is great.....i loved it.... it's indescribable..... the picturesque forest is still so clear in my head...i think i'm gonna end up dreaming about it tonight....

watching the show, it just irks me to realize how us humans are entirely capable of being as ruthless and cruel as what is depicted in the movie. in fact, we are already doing that...... to kill entire families for the sake of money? sheesh. who the hell do we think we are? just because God gifted us with more abilities and 'brains' than the other living things on earth doesn't mean we ought to take it all for granted.......... i really and truly feel that we deserve 2012 if we as a total human race fail in such a sense...............

Anywayz, on to other things, Faith is really crawling everywhere now....... the best thing about her newfound ability is her reaction when she sees someone come home..... she hears footsteps, then turns around to look.....when she hears the key opening our house lock, she squeals in utter delight then crawls frantically to reach the door in record time to welcome you with the brightest smile ever!!!!

a sight like that makes you forget all your troubles.... =)

no doubt she has her moments where i get so terribly annoyed with her antics.... but i must say, it is true that a mummy can feel her children.... i somehow know what she is feeling if i allow myself to chill and think like her....

she is showing more and more of her personality, and darling and i both agree that she is really outgoing, just like me.....haha...but she's extremely stubborn.... just like the both of us. It turns out that she loves the both of us lots and lots....but she's afraid when i get angry with her. i don't even have to raise my voice... i just have to stare at her.... hmm... i wonder if it's a teacher thing! hahaha.... but on the other hand, she's capable of abusing her father's love for her and gets angry when he speaks sternly to her...so much so that she refuses to be carried by him! can u believe how audacious this little 'angel' is?? =p

yet i must say that she really is adorable and knows how to use her cuteness to her advantage...haha.... she's squealing more and more these days, and is constantly trying to pull herself to stand on anything and everything around the house! she's had a couple of knocks trying to do so...but well, falls and knocks are part of growing up... as long as they're not too serious, i guess it's all okay...... =)

really can't wait for her to start talking and cruising more steadily!!!!

6 more days till it's back to work.....*shudders*...i just wish the hols would never end!!!

10:50 PM

Monday, December 07, 2009

hamster face.

well...so my ordeal is finally over.... first time I went under GA... kinda freaky actually... with all the docs and nurses telling me that my left wisdom tooth is sitting on a very precarious spot...

it didn't help that the patient who did his op before me came back into the day surgery ward looking sooooo extremely stoned and knocked out.

seriously, I've NEVER stayed in a hospital before..... the only time was during Faith's birth... but even that is not counted because Darling was with me throughout it all...so that sense of loneliness never really sets in...

it's quite an experience...really... and well, now i'm on a soft diet...great way to lose weight eh?? hahha....

so... went to watch 2012 and New Moon in the last week or so.... it's been such a long time since we caught a movie...

it's just sooo weird... we constantly wish we had the freedom of going out without Faith...yet when we are out without her, it feels like something is missing!!

anyway, i think the effects of 2012 are really great.... although it's rather 'fake', yet i do think the scenes are really good...... the show really did bring up the selfish side of mankind.... but i do wonder...if this really does happen someday, will we still be equally selfish to want to save ourselves before others??? if this were to happen to me, all i'd want to do is to grab my loved ones, go to the beach, and sit there to pray the rosary... if it's God's will for the world to end, then well, what's the point of running away right?? =)

New Moon was kinda okay.... too much hype, and i do feel that the story was a little draggy... i mean... Bella is sooo super confused isn't she?? if you ask me, i'd rather stick with Edward... i have no idea why..maybe the maturity and the coolness and the suaveness just gives him an added edge... Jacob on the other hand is hot-headed and impulsive.... and still really a little boy at heart...

ah....movies... Darling wants to watch Ninja Assassin...wonder when we can do that.... especially since we are going to malaysia this weekend already.....

so much to do.... with Christmas coming up, school reopening soon, and Faith's birthday too....

Faith is crawling all over the place now, and she moves relatively fast... =) hehe... she's trying to grab everything she can to stand... though when she's tired, she just falls back, so we still have to watch her really closely...

She's addressing us now... and i guess that for now, 'ma-ma' and 'papa' still means the same thing to her... .'papa' needs a bit more practice, but she's going 'mamamama' most of the time now... this little monkey is also very fond of screaming...just for the sake of having fun....

i find it really amusing how she behaves so differently at home and in public...so much so that all the aunties can't believe that she is a true monster at heart... =) she just knows how to get into others' good books... and well, that one trait is someething that makes it impossible to get mad at her....

i can't wait for the trip on Friday.... .it's gonna be fun.. i'm sure... i just hope she survives the long drive without deafening me!!!

12:10 PM

Friday, December 04, 2009

in typing my last post, i was very aware that i would offend some, if not most pple who knew what i was referring to.

yet, i chose to write it because these were my true sentiments

in the process of writing down my thoughts, i realised that i did not give credit to those who deserved it.

and that is my bad.

to say the truth,

from 2 days of observations,

i felt only 2 pple deserved commending, and 1 though not bad, still needed a bit of improvement.
these 2 pple are relatively close to my heart, and they sure did not let us down.
as for the other 1, she was not bad....but it's only the beginning for her....

i will only speak for those 2, because they really worked hard together to ensure the event went well because EVERYONE else failed to do their job they way they were trained to.
no matter how much shit they had to clear of those above and under them,
not once did they give up,
or let their participants in on the fact that the entire event was crumbling underneath their feet.

they do deserve commending,
and i'm not being biased.

if all of u reading this wonder whether i turned up just to criticize every single person,
then well, i can only say you don't really know me at all.
as mentioned previously,
all i smsed told me the event was great, and i was really proud and happy
so we decided to turn up to give all of you support.
but we were disappointed greatly but the amount of oversight on YOUR part.

i've heard that YOU didn't know how or where to ask for our help.

seriously,

i can't help but wonder,

is it that difficult to ask for our help when we were YOUR friends?

ask and u shall receive.

isn't that line something we are all familiar with?

i can't help but wonder if it was truly the fear of troubling us or ego that was causing you to not open your mouth.

clearly, you lacked in manpower with the amount of exams / commitments / lack of experience from your people.

all you had to do was ask, and we could see what we could do to help
if we couldn't ,
you know very well that we would tell you NO....
we aren't that obliged to put ourselves and our child in jeopardy.

But

you chose to continue ON YOUR OWN, unsure, yet unwilling to ask.

i wonder if it's a lack of humility on your part.

1 of the 2 i commended tried to inject some order into the chaos, but clearly, it was not appreciated....not from the start, and definitely not at the end.

isn't it sad how one of your men can alert you to your pure oversight and yet u choose not to see it.......

it's just depressing.

for the record,
i blamed myself before blaming YOU.
because i chose to abandon the ship.
and i felt deeply that it was all my fault.

but now i know

i do know for sure,
that this move was necessary
for you all to wake up

i wonder if you did
because all your participants seemed to love the event.

i can't help but wonder if it was for the right reasons though....
and whether they gained something real from the camp.
or if they loved it because we weren't there to clamp down on discipline.

hey...it's supposed to be fun, ain't it?
well, some of you might say that....but please remember that you all ARE soldiers...
and discipline is an important part of it all....
which it clearly was lacking in this event.

maybe you'll wake up

maybe you won't.

it's all God's plans.

yet, who am i to comment since i'm now an outsider, however experienced i may have been?

i do know one thing for sure.....

if ur event was in any way a success, please thank your participants...and not congratulate yourself....

because they made it work.

not you.

if any one of you reading this are upset by what i've said,

please pause for a minute,

think objectively about everything i've said,

and then think again.

Are you upset coz i'm being biased about what i've said?

or

Are you upset because most, if not all of what i've said is true?

if you know me well enough, you know that i'm writing this with my head, and not my heart,

and that is why it is this blunt.........................

no hard feelings at all......

12:24 AM

Tuesday, December 01, 2009

just came back from something we love deeply and have much feelings for.

i am feeling extremely disturbed, troubled, disappointed, upset......bewildered.......

i don't know what to say.

YOU said that it's time for you all to try it out on your own. YOU told me not to take it the wrong way.....

how could i not take it the wrong way? YOUR first line alone is suffice to tell me that we're interfering beyond your comfort zone.

I can tell you how much i questioned myself ever since that day...... do we think too highly of ourselves? are we expecting too much of all of you? should we just not have bothered from the very beginning? is this the right thing to do?

we did not want to be selfish and think only of ourselves. admittedly, we did abandon all of you.... in a sinking ship, no doubt......but we felt that we needed to do right to our child. i am a person who demands to give 100% of herself...nothing less...and if i can't give the best of myself, then i'd rather not give at all.

can't help but think back to 3 years ago where we were left with an almost sunken ship with NO help and NO support, and we had to fend for ourselves. We're just thankful we were all close-knitted enough to battle it all out together -----what is left today is the result of our 'battle'.

we did not want history to repeat itself at all. And so we constantly volunteered our help. whether we were getting married, having a child, we wanted to ensure that you all always have someone to fall back on, to look to for help, and not to feel helpless and totally on your own. we WILL NEVER leave you in the lurch. NEVER. even though we left....there wasn't once where we stopped thinking of you all/prayed for you all.

in the last 5 months, we've always been wondering how things are, even popping by whenever we could just to make sure that everything was okay......to lend a hand/listening ear if it was required....................

but all of these was thrown into our faces by YOUR words alone.

well.

maybe we truly are thinking too highly of ourselves.

i sincerely do believe you all need to walk your own path, journey upon it on your own, because this is no longer our battle, but yours to fight.

THAT is why we did not take the initiative to step in and run the show, but instead just kept on offering our help once and again.

The minute you all requested for help, we started our engines, ready to wade through this storm with all of you.

it was in dire straits. it really was.

but we NEVER gave up on you. even at the one and only meeting we attended, we tried hard to be optimistic and believed in EVERY SINGLE ONE of you.

just like the event in march. It may not have been done to the very best.... but we sincerely thought it was done to the best of your abilities..... and ALL your participants benefitted from the event.

i fear that this event would not be the same.

PLEASE REALIZE THAT RIGHT NOW, I AM NOT SPEAKING ABOUT THE CONTENT OF THE EVENT, BUT THE THINGS/LOGISITICS, SAFETY, PRACTICALITY, DANGERS THAT HAVE ALL BEEN OVERLOOKED.

mind you. we did not attend ANY program. not at all.

and what made all my fears and disappointments arise were things that are TOTALLY UNRELATED to content.

and these things were observed in a mere 15 mins.

safety was definitely overlooked. the way rooms are positioned; the way convenience/comfort of yourselves was placed before your participants; the way your participants were left unattended on more than one occasion to entertain themselves and play cards in the middle of your event............ all these speak volumes to us.

i now know why EVERY SINGLE PERSON i asked said the camp is okay/not bad/going well.

if i were a camper, i'd LOVE the camp, because i have total free reign to do ANYTHING and EVERYTHING i want because no one cares about me..............

but if as a camper, i took time to ask myself if my time was fully utilised in this event, i have to say that i was extremely disappointed. because of the 2 hours i spent there, i noticed that less than 1 hour was dutifully maximised to it's fullest potential.......

it amazes me how people, including YOUR leaders, have time to go onto facebook. if this was done during the witching hours, i'd have nothing to say, because of FREE WILL......... BUT people are going onto facebook at 10am! how in the world is that possible if their time was fully maximised and utilised???????????

YOU are deeper in spirituality than ANY ONE OF US......... yet.... obviously, this is not your concern for your participants of this event.

Need i say more?

YOUR leaders DON'T even know the time of the program, not even when it is their own. Not even your second-in-command seems to know.......

an outsider raised a concern which caused YOUR leaders to question themselves and REPROGRAM something that is the MOST MAJOR in the entire event( - at least, it is the most major to me, for after all, only if IT is conducted well, will your participants have gained anything through it. ) this concern, when probed further by yours truly only gave me more reasons for worry....................how could YOU have overlooked it?

once again, i am NOT questioning the content of your event, or even the ability of your leaders, for SO MANY of them are young and new. what i am questioning is YOUR OVERSIGHT in more ways than one... and how you failed to think about/foresee such things that are GREAT BIG problems!

i was so tempted....so very tempted to stay on....but my most obvious reason for leaving did not give me a chance to. i wanted to stay not because i wanted to laugh and say 'I told you so'.... nor was it because i wanted to show my power/ high experience/ability...... but because i really wanted to ensure the participants gain something from this event.

once again, i must say the LORD is GREAT, for your participants are true angels. had you had a more trouble-making bunch of people, i am sure YOU'd be faced with a multitude of problems...and severe ones at that.

my only sadness comes from the fact that we have new faces, of which some belong to the lost sheep...........if i were them, i'd tell myself to be thankful for not having gone for this event in the last few years, because my time was not utilised properly at all................

YET, i can't help but remind myself that i chose to leave.

AND i can't help but ask myself if this is part of God's plan....that like a parent, it's time for me to let go of your hands and let you fall on your own, just so you'll learn how to pick yourself up once again..................is this your journey to journey on alone without us?????

i can't help but wonder..........

10:07 PM

Monday, November 30, 2009

this last week or so has been TOTALLY insane...... whether at work or at home....

at work, there's been a mountain of work to do.... reviewing the past year, planning and re-preparing next year..... sigh.... even till now, it's not finished...we've only completed a term of work!!!! *shudders*....... though the hols start tomorrow for me... yet... i fear to think of what lies ahead in 2010...

at home... it's not good either...... after my last post, i had a major swelling gum......turns out that God decided to give me some 'wisdom'!!! my wisdom teeth started hurting.........those of you who know me well enough know of my phobia of dentists...i'd rather DIE than to visit a dentist..... but, i was in SOOO much pain, i decided to go after 2 days.... well, seems that the dentist world has improved by leaps and bounds in the last 7 years!!! hahaha....now, it's no longer as scary...i mean, i still am scared, but it's not as bad......

i still shudder when i think of those days where the school dentist dug hard at our teeth, scolded us for eating before seeing her... and we tasted blood from our gums....rinsed and shuddered at what came out........ they should have made ALL dentists the way it is now, and no one would ever be scared!

totally LOVE my dentist at The Dental People, which is near my house...... he's awesome man!!! hahaha....

anyway, i have to remove ALL 4 of my wisdom teeth THIS friday! will be going to NUH to go under GA coz seeing as my phobia of dentists have not totally been diminished, i will not put myself under the fear and terror of hearing and seeing everything that's being done....

sigh... this has to happen a week before our trip to M'sia and 3 weeks before Christmas!!! and during my hols!!! i MUST recover ASAP!!!!!

me aside? Faith is still sick... =( she has a terrible cough and mild bronchitis.... had to rent a nebulizer home for her to inhale.....the poor girl goes through so much agony of medicine...and her phelgm is still haunting her.....

tomorrow's her review... i just hope she gets better....

some things have happened this few days which have made me reflect a lot about relationships....

i used to be a spoilt brat in our relationship..... i really was.... at the smallest of fights, i'd say that we should take time to cool off........ i just thank God for darling, for he never once gave up on us...and he often scolded me... he'd say that if I could mention such things so lightly, it's obvious that the relationship doesn't mean anything much to me.....otherwise, why would i give up so lightly?

it is so true.

if a relationship is no longer worth fighting for, giving up all you have just to keep it alive, then it no longer is worth anything at all.

we've been together for 1 month short of 7 years already.... to people who are still dating, it may seem like forever...to people like my parents who've been married for close to half a century, we've only just begun........

things weren't always smooth-sailing.... we've had our major fights and all...esp when we first started, and the relationship was still rocky... but we have grown...as a COUPLE...... the journey of a relationship is something in which you have to walk TOGETHER.....

LOVE is not only about giving or taking entirely....... the entire road, is a compromise on both sides...... at times you may fall, at times you may jump..... but through it all, you have to hold onto each other's hands, and walk beside one another.....no one leads, no one follows.....you walk TOGETHER......

i used to fret and complain and whine about how Darling never ever spoke up or shared his thoughts....... we fought A LOT over stupid things like that...... we still do! =) but....once i've gotten my frustration out of my system, i ask myself, why do i bother? that's the way he is, isn't it? i knew he was like that from the very 1st month we were together.....yet, i still chose to believe in him, to love him....and for that very same reason, it is why i should accept him.... for better or for worse.....these words speak volumes....it's not only in the material/financial sense...or in the physical/mental health sense.......it's also in terms of one's imperfections.......

no. I'm not saying you should entirely forgive EVERYTHING the person does wrongly... especially if it encroaches on your rights...........morally, if a person is wrong, he/she is wrong and punishable.... that is for sure.....

what i'm saying is that after the heat of the moment has left us, we need to stop. take a breather and think about it all........we should not focus on the mistake, but on the reason behind it. weigh the differences..... what's more important here? the relationship or the sin? yes, we must think with our heads once in a while....but in this case, isn't this a relationship after all? does it not concern emotions? we aren't judging for the person to be hung or not....but whether the love matters in this case......

UNCONDITIONAL LOVE.......means loving no matter what the person does......i.e. a mother/wife/sister/daughter who would send a loved one to jail for murdering/stealing/drug-trafficking, etc......yet still say sincerely that 'I still love him'.....

Yes. they need to be punished...but not by us........

as the line i read from a web article,

"Mum, love me most when i deserve it the least"

it applies to everyone or everything that we love..............

how much can we forgive?

i only have this to say.... if you love, you will forgive no matter what............

of course, if the person no longer loves you, then there's no longer any point in all of this.....but if you and the other person still love each other....then...doesn't love remove it all?????

always remember why you fell in love the very first time.....the reasons you fell for the person... the reason you decided to walk this path together........

"i promise to be true to you in good times and in bad, in sickness and in health. I will love you and honour you all the days of my life...."

this was on the web together with my quote from above...find it extremely true...... =)

Your children are not your children.
They are sons and daughters of life’s longing for itself.
They come through you but not from you,
And though they are with you yet they belong not to you.
You may give them your love but not your thoughts.
For they have their own thoughts.
You may house their bodies but not their souls,
For their souls dwell in the house of tomorrow,
Which you cannot visit, not even in your dreams!
You may strive to be like them, but seek not to make them like you.
For life goes not backward, nor tarries with yesterday.
You are the bows from which your children as living arrows are sent forth.
The archer sees the mark upon the path of infinite,
And He bends you with His might.
That His arrows may go swift and far!
Let your bending in the Archer’s hand be for gladness;
For even as He loves the arrow that flies,
So He loves also the bow that is stable.

--Kahlil Gibran

I find it so extremely true......for my students....for Faith.....for those i love - as friends or family...... it's really something i will make myself remember.....

10:05 PM

Thursday, November 19, 2009

it's been a terribly long time since I last blogged.

I tell you... teachers work like mad dogs once the end of the year comes......we have no time to eat, no peace of mind when we sleep...and all we can do is to stare at the computer all day long if we aren't in class....all to ensure that the marks are keyed in correctly...that the remarks in the report book are gramatically correct and politically pleasing.... that all the other awards, etc are keyed in correctly.... sheesh..it's madness...then comes all the checking of papers, signing, etc etc etc.... it's just endless..... pretty much no one had time to eat properly..... the entire staff room was a mad rush....

but.. thank goodness, the kids are gone for their hols now.... =)

the WHOLE public world think teachers are SOOO lucky, coz we have holidays....sigh... that's what they THINK.... with the 'farewells' to our little 'angels', it's 'hello' to 8-5 meetings and reviews cum planning for the year ahead.....

doesn't help that Faith has caught some weird bug from God knows where, then passed it on to me, then to darling, then to my dad...and now she's got it again.... sigh... Faith and me are coughing like some dogs, and i've had a horribly 'sexy' voice for a week already! =(

JXY is in a week or so. it's weird to not have to think about it. had wanted to lend our hand because their pple are so new and they seem so unprepared.. .but.. i guess our help is not needed and is uncalled for. In fact, people find us unnecessary and helping too much...... i'm greatly shocked, hurt and appalled. We only helped because they needed it... and suddenly they turn around and say that we should let them try it out on their own. HA. So much for lending our time to them when they most needed it. We never even stepped in until they asked for it.....everything was in dire straits due to lack of foresight and planning by their own leaders. But fine. since our help is uncalled for, and we are seen as being unwanted, i don't see the point in even wasting my time any longer.

For the record, we do not think that we are superior to any of you. We are only lending our hand because the current point you're at doesn't seem like you're ready for your camp which is in a week's time, and thus, we hope that by helping, we'd be able to gear you all in the right direction so that you'd be ready. But since you see us as interfering in your camp, then fine. We WILL NOT interfere any longer. because you don't need it anyway. We only helped because we hated that feeling of abandonment we felt when we were left to fend for ourselves with no support. We thought you might appreciate it too. But apparently we thought wrong. We assume too much. And therefore, we will not interfere any longer. Since you all think you are ready for what lies ahead, then so be it. We will wash our hands off EVERY SINGLE thing. Unless we are asked, we WILL NO LONGER APPEAR, because we interfere too much. So be it.

... in the midst of all the madness of school and unhappy stuff, Faith is still a darling to be with... she just seems to want to gain her independence quickly. She refuses to crawl, and would rather use her head and legs to propel her forward than to use her hands! sooo weird... these days, she usually roams around the entire bed at night, using everything around her to help her to stand... before she falls back onto her diaper-protected bum.... and instead of learning to crawl, she'd rather walk! so right now, she can walk, if we hold her hands... =) will she walk even before she crawls? That seems like a high possibility!!!!

right now she can sit all by herself, and she knows how to pull herself to a sitting position all by herself from when she's lying down! am so proud of her.... she's still a small baby for her age, especially since she's still drinking and eating like a horse! but, i'm happy with her size and her milestone achievements!

Faith is such a cheeky baby.... you should see how she tries to snatch my glasses from my face and pull my hair... and when i turn around to stare at her, she gives me the brightest, widest and cheekiest smile ever just so i won't scold her! can you believe that!

the smile i love most is her crinkled nose smile... she imitates my smile... and when she finds it really funny, she even snorts! hahahaha... .my dad is saying it looks so 'ugly'.. hehe... but i find it really cute!

Christmas is coming soon... she'll be spending her first Christmas already!!!! =D am so looking forward to it... just a couple months more and she'll be turning 1 year already!!! i already have SOO many ideas... =) everything's still being worked out though..... gonna do up the whole place with nice decor and all....

so much to look forward to... can't wait to spend the hols with her!!!! =)

4:22 PM

Monday, October 26, 2009

it's been a crazy month since my last post....

the only reason i have any time to post is because i'm on MC today and tomorrow due to the very bad sprained wrist and 2 sprained ankles.....

sigh.. i can deal with sprained ankles any day....as those of you who know me well enough know that sprained ankles are like part and parcel of my life! but a sprained wrist is something i'm struggling to cope with...especially since it's on my dominant left hand......

doesn't help that i need both hands to look after Baby Faith!!!!

sigh... but i'm coping.... =)

anywayz... much has happened.. life is sooooo busy.... the girls are having their SA2 papers as of this week... the week before that has been a mad rush to complete the syllabus and revision papers! marking and correcting endlessly.......

so... P1 again next year? I'll be getting the same classroom, but an entirely new batch of students... what will it hold for me? I really have no idea but to just trust in the Lord.....

JXY is in one month... Darling and myself are desperately trying to help them get through it all... coz as of now, they still seem terribly terribly unprepared..... it doesn't help that they had some irresponsible soul in their midst... someone that disappointed every single one of us terribly.... i hate people who break promises...... i can't understand why you must leave with immediate effect when they are already crumbling... will it kill you to stay on just that couple months more so that they can at least complete the year?

No.. you are simply far too selfish to do that. No time for studies? Ha... what a joke... if your reason for leaving is that important, i don't see why you can't say the truth. when you told us you wanted to step up, you said it's coz you want to give back to Legion. Give back, my ass... you aren't even there for 2 months.... and you say we have expectations of you?! Our expectations came from your own mouth... your promise to God ON THE ALTAR! why do you even bother seeing what God thinks when you can't even fuilfill your own promise?

I really have no idea what is wrong with you... i pity the broken hearts and dreams of those you love... those who believed in you. People whom you have destroyed with your own selfishness.

sheesh.

i shan't injure my wrist further by wasting my time typing about you....... i just hope you come up with some valid reason for why you are leaving. whatever it is, i don't give a shit. you no longer exist in my life.

anyway, Faith is really growing up....

7 months already.. .it's scary to see the weeks fly by like that.....

week after week, the difference in her is just growing... =) she's eating more and more food now, and i really can't wait to feed her adult food! hehe.. i'm sure she'll love it.. coz right now, she prefers all these food rather than her rice cereal... and i don't blame her one teeny bit at all! =)

soon she'll be crawling round the house.. really can't wait for that to happen! my little sunshine... she really is the sunshine in our lives.....

love her to bits and pieces... except for the times when she drives us up the wall of course!

alright then.. will update again, asap! =)

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